Monday, 15 February 2010


In my blog.
In my house.
In my heart.
Lots of quiet here lately.

I was temporarily abandoned in the name of sunnier climates and field research about a week ago. I'm leaving too (for somewhere else) in about a week, which will be so overdue and really nice. But in the meantime... All I can think of is this :(
A Colon and an open bracket are summing me up right now.

When he left the temperature dropped about 10 degrees. And we didn't have many degrees to play around with, I'm telling you.

I keep complaining about the cold to excuse myself for feeling so sad, because it doesn't feel right to just feel sad because he is working away for 6 weeks.

But maybe it is... He is my bestest friend in the whole wide world.

Tuesday, 2 February 2010

More on Masters.

When I was at Uni I would dread every semester thinking that it was all going to be so hard... and that this was the semester that everyone would see through me, and I would endure harsh punishment, humiliation and just general public criticism for not dedicating 10 hours per week per subject.

Once I'd get into the swing of things, however, everything usually panned out more than ok. I got really good results for most of my subjects, but I still don't know how much I deserved them.

My degree was in Linguistics and Italian Studies. The first comes so freakishly naturally to me it's not funny, and I'm not bragging, because being gifted in Linguistics gives you little to talk about with anyone.

Most people don't quite understand what it is. They say "What languages?" and then you need to explain what applied linguistics is, and you are usually left standing alone in a room at the dinner party, with one or two bored polite people if you're lucky. If you're unlucky, you find a fellow enthusiast, and we are similar to trekkies or those people who learn elvish which is the language Tolkein invented for fictional purposes. Not that there is anything wrong with these people, we all have our interests. It's just that it's isolating, you know?

Another problem with a degree in the way we use words is that it never leaves you. The observations are endless. Odds are, if you know someone who's a bit weird, but you just can't put your finger on it, I can tell you what the problem is. Then it'll annoy you too.

The second major was taught in a language I learnt onsite while still a teenager, so I feel like a bit of a cheat.

Now I'm looking into masters. In fine arts this time, and there is no hiding behind anything there. I'm determined to find my place in all of this.. but I have to say, I'm feeling quite vulnerable and out of my depth about it. Don't know how I'm going to fudge my way through this one, even if someone does accept me, somewhere...